If You Could See How I Feel

I am observer. Few things in life intrigue me more than watching the faces and demeanor of people I encounter. Some appear angry or frustrated, making me wonder if they are just cranky or if there is something deeper going on in their lives. Others appear smug, as if they are just a little bit better than the rest of us. The greater majority present mostly unreadable faces, neither frowning nor smiling. If I were to look in a mirror, I would undoubtedly fall into the “unreadable” category.

Sometimes, I wish others had the ability to see past my unreadable face and really understand how I feel. Most days, I look better on the outside than I feel on the inside. I’m sure I’m not the only one. We have each endured self-inflicted traumas in addition to the wounds and disappointments of everyday life and yet, we press on.

I press on because I have a God who knows me better than any human ever will. He knows when to challenge me and He knows when to comfort me. God gently, but clearly, reminds me of things in my life that are not pleasing to Him. I was created to be in a relationship with my heavenly Father. As I surrender to Him, He will surely take my hand and guide me to my eternal home with Him.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;

test me and know my anxious thoughts.

Point out anything in me that offends you,

and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

Psalm 139:23-24 (NLT)